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Clear Eyes, Full Heart, Can’t Lose

I’m not sure where all this introspection is coming from this week. Maybe it’s a few solid weeks of training under my belt. Maybe it’s this weird feeling I’ve had lately that things are about to pull together for me athletically. Anyway, one of the scariest things to do is to put yourself out there and admit your goals. When Katie and I were getting ready for VCM the other day, she started hedging her goal. “Well, I’d like to run under 1:27. I should be able to. But I don’t know…” She blew her goal away, running well under 1:27. Sometimes the biggest part of the battle is admitting what you want from a race.

Stating your goals takes courage. It puts your dreams out there and makes a clear marker of success or failure for everyone else to see. Below are my goals organized into the next 18 months, someday and pie in the sky. Some are pie in the sky because although they are theoretically attainable, they’ll take a lot of things pulling together for me. Furthermore, I’ll be just fine if those remain things I worked for my whole life and didn’t quite achieve. My someday goals and next 18 month goals should be closer in reach.

Next 18 Months

PR in the marathon Mohawk Hudson, 2:54 in October of 2014

Break 1:20 in the half and 37 in the 10K

Get a shiny new 5K PR (see also, race a 5K)


Win a marathon RDC Marathon 2017

Win a national title (Masters Club Nationals for track is my best bet…)

Run a beer mile

Break 2:45 in the marathon, 1:18 in the half, 36 in the 10K and 17:30 in the 5K

Run a trail marathon

Transition to an excellent masters career


Pie in the Sky

Olympic Trials Qualifier in the marathon

Start in the Elite Women’s Corral for the Boston Marathon

Get invited to the USA Running Circuit

Get a mention on Let’s Run or Running Times


I put myself out here, now it’s your turn. What are your goals?




Recently Read: 5.2.14

How is it May?! I ask both because I woke up in a start this morning when I realized we hadn’t paid our rent and because it’s been a miserable weather week. Anyway…

In annoying news, dopers are still all over our sport. On the one hand, I’m glad to see her get caught. On the other, I don’t understand our two year bans or the time frame that was assigned that allows her to compete in Worlds next year. Lauren Fleshman had an interesting perspective where she talks about a few years ago when she realized she couldn’t reach her goals without doping. Like Lauren, no outcome is worth cheating to me. My litmus test for most things comes from the poem below; it hung in my husband’s room when I first met him and now hangs next to our bathroom mirror.

When you get what you want in your struggle for self,
And the world makes you king for a day,
Then go to the mirror and look at yourself,
And see what that man has to say.
For it isn’t a man’s father, mother or wife,
Whose judgement upon him must pass,
The fellow whose verdict counts most in life,
Is the man staring back from the glass.
He’s the fellow to please, never mind all the rest,
For he’s with you clear to the end,
And you’ve passed your most dangerous, difficult test,
If the man in the glass is your friend.
You can fool the whole world down the pathway of years,
And get pats on the back as you pass,
But the final reward will be heartache and tears,
If you’ve cheated the man in the glass.

Moving on…I’m looking forward to trying out a class here. I like spinning fine but rowing is a totally new idea. I like that it is a huge cardio workout without direct impact on the legs, works through the hip joint and builds upper body strength perfect for a good arm swing.

I love this article on the impact of running, both because it comes from my alma mater and because we all know the benefits of running, so it’s nice to see them quantified for the world to appreciate.

This is just plain awesome. I’m not even sure I can drink a beer in 5 minutes, let alone 4 and run a mile. That being said, I’d love to know what the women’s record is. I have this thing about holding random records.

Finally, I’m thisclose to picking my fall marathon and kicking off my training cycle, so this is my go-to video to remind me why all the hard work will be worth it.

What are you up to this weekend? Racing? Long Runs? Cleaning up the yard?

Decisions, Decisions

Somehow, we’re at the beginning of November. The cross country season is all but over and our mornings are now starting in the 20s. I’m confident I’ve had my last run in shorts and I’m confused by the time change over the past weekend. I loved walking out the door at 6:10 to light this morning, but I’m struggling to stay awake in the evenings. Keeping up with running in medical school is challenging, to say the least. There is significant pressure to study all the time and taking an hour off to run every day makes me worry that I’m falling behind on the ever-present new material. As such, I have good weeks of running where I get in 60 miles and bad weeks where I don’t crack 30. I’m working on being okay with that fact.

It’s hard to focus on mileage right now for another reason, namely that I’m staring down the reality of needing another surgery. Back in the spring, I had a repeat EMG on my foot because I was having numbness again. It turns out that my tibial nerve really doesn’t work that well, which explains my odd footstrike on my left foot, recurrent numbness and why speed work has felt so awkward over the past year. I met with the surgeon in October and it seems that to meet my current performance goals, I need surgery first. I’m struggling far more with this decision than with the decision to have compartment syndrome surgery. With my CS, it was urgent and I was young enough that I felt like I had many years of my best running ahead of me. With this surgery, however, I find myself wondering if another surgery (plus the recovery, plus 6 weeks of sub-q blood thinner, plus risks) is really worth it. Will I have time to recover, rebuild and try again at my OT time before the natural slowing of aging sets in? How long will my recovery and return to competition be? Do I even have time to train at the level required for an OTQ while I’m in medical school?

If I don’t have surgery, the biggest risks are permanent damage to the nerve and curling of the toes as the intrinsic muscles of my foot stop functioning. The prognosis for tarsal tunnel surgery is generally good, with about 2 weeks on crutches followed by 4 weeks in a boot. Dr. Charlson (who did all three of my husband’s surgeries) feels confident that with surgery just before New Years, I could be competitive by the fall. With my track record of healing, Will and I think a half marathon for the fall is probably more realistic than Chicago. Since we have Summer 2014 off from classes, that is a huge opportunity for me to log serious miles and see how close to the OT standard I can get in the half marathon.

For now, I’m moping around and alternate between good run days and bad run days. I change my mind on surgery multiple times in a day, even multiple times on a run depending on whether I can feel my foot or not. I’m hoping to have it figured out in the next couple of weeks so that I can plot both my path leading up to surgery and try to come up with a plan for coming back (again).